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Çà ñïèíîé
      Îïå÷àòàíû äâåðè
               Ïîëîñêàìè ëóííîãî ñâåòà
      Ìîë÷à
Òåíè êàìíåé è äåðåâüåâ
               Ñïëåòàþò òðîïó
      Òàê ëåãêî
               Òàê ïðîçðà÷íî
                           Òàê òîíêî
È ïðîùàëüíûé ïîäàðîê
       Óøåäøåãî â ïðîøëîå ëåòà:
       Îòïå÷àòîê óïàâøåé çâåçäû
                Íà îçÿáøåé ëàäîíè ðåáåíêà…


Ïóñòü ìåøàåò ñåãîäíÿ
                                    Êàê è ïðåæäå
                          Âèíî ñ ìîëîêîì
               Ïîâèâàëüíàÿ áàáêà ðàññâåòà
Áåëîé ëîøàäüþ óòðî
               Ìÿãêî òðîãàåò ëîêîíû
                           Ñîííûõ ðó÷üåâ
                     Íà ïëå÷àõ ó îáâåòðåííûõ ñêàë
Òîëüêî ñòàëî åùå õîëîäíåé è
              Äëèííåé ïóòü îò íîâûõ âîïðîñîâ
                                      Äî íîâûõ îòâåòîâ:
Ýòî êòî-òî óøåë
               È îïÿòü íèêîìó íè÷åãî íå ñêàçàë…




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Çàêðûâàþ ãëàçà --
                     Âèæó ïîëîã áàãðîâûõ çàêàòîâ
         Âèæó áåëûå çóáû
                             Îáâåòðåííûõ âðåìåíåì ñêàë
Òîðæåñòâóþùèé êðèê
          Â òèøèíå
                     Â ÷ðåâå ñìåðòè
          Áèåíèå íîâûõ è íîâûõ ðîæäåíèé
Òå Âðàòà
          ×òî îäíàæäû
                     Ðàñêðûë ïðåäî ìíîé


                                 Ïåðåâàë
Áûëî âñ¸
         Ïðåæäåâðåìåííî
                               Ïðîñòî è
                                            Áëèçêî
       Òàê
Ðàçâÿçêà áëèçêà
                     Îòêðûâàþùèì êíèãó ñ êîíöà


ß ñìîòðåëàñü ñïîêîéíî â Ñóäüáó
                          Ñëîâíî êàìåíü — â ãëàçà âàñèëèñêà
            Íå ñíèìàÿ óëûáêó ñ ëèöà


Òàì
        Ãäå ëåçâèåì ðåê
                Âñêðûòû ò¸ìíûå âåíû ãîðû
            Èñòåêàÿ ðàññâåòîì
                            Ñïàëà ÿ íà áåëûõ öâåòàõ


Îáíèìàëàñü ñ äîæä¸ì






Ðóíû äàëüíèõ äîðîã
                 Êàê ëàäîíè ìëàäåíöà
                                                ×èòàëà
                 È
Âïèâàëàñü êîãòÿìè
                 Â ñî÷àùèéñÿ ñûðîñòüþ ìîõ
Ñåðîé îáëà÷íîé ïòèöåé
                           Çàñòûâ
Íà øèðîêîì ïëå÷å ïåðåâàëà
                    Ïåðåä òåì êàê øàãíóòü çà ïîðîã


ß âíèìàëà ïðèçûâ
           Êàæäîé êëåòêîé ðàñêðûòîãî òåëà
ß ñåáÿ çàáûâàëà
           È âíîâü îòêðûâàëà
                                         Ëþáÿ
Âîæäåëåëà
      Òåðÿëà
              Ñîìíåíüÿì íàâñòðå÷ó ëåòåëà


È òîìèòåëüíî-âå÷åí áûë ìèã èëè






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Ìíå çîëîòûå ïëÿæíûå ïåñêè
Óæå äàâíûì-äàâíî íå äàðÿò ñèëó ñ÷àñòüÿ
            ×åì âûøå ãîðû -- òåì áåëåå èõ âèñêè…


ß
Âñïîìèíàÿ î áûëûõ íåíàñòüÿõ
            Ñòîþ áåçìîëâíî íà ëàäîíè ó áîãîâ


Ñåäûå êîñìû êîðîëåâû ëüäîâ
             Òåêóò ïî êàìåííûì åå ïëå÷àì
È âçãëÿä
              Ïàðÿùèé âûøå îáëàêîâ
                                                        Ïå÷àëåí
Äðåâíèé õìóðûé Êàé
Ðàñêëàäûâàåò ïåðåä íåé
           Ñâîé áåñêîíå÷íûé êàìåííûé ïàñüÿíñ
           Â íàäåæäå ïîëó÷èòü
                     Òàêóþ äîëãîæäàííóþ ñâîáîäó


Ïîëó÷èò ëè åå äèòÿ ìå÷òû?


Îäèí ëèøü øàã è
Ðóêè âûñîòû
                      Ñìèíàÿ òåëî
                                    Îòïóñêàþò äóøó


Ëåãêî ñìèíàþòñÿ áóìàæíûå ëèñòû
Ðóêîé íå äðîãíóâøåþ îòïóñêàÿ ñòðîêè
            Ïîïàâøèåñÿ â ïëåí ìîèõ ñòèõîâ


                            Ïîñëóøàé
Ãîëîñà âåêîâ
       Äàâíî ìèíóâøèõ
               Çäåñü çâó÷àò êàê ïåñíÿ
Ñåäàÿ ïåñíÿ âå÷íî áåëûõ ëüäîâ
       Ïîþùàÿñÿ âå÷íî þíûì âåòðîì
×òî ãîíèò îäèíîêèõ ïòèö
                Êðóãàìè áûòèÿ
È ÿ
Åé âíåìëþ


Âíåìëþ ïèñüìåíàì
                                  Ðó÷üåâ
      Íåïîâòîðèìî-âäîõíîâåííûõ
×òî ðåæóò ðóíû íà ëàäîíÿõ ñêàë
      Ñâîèì ðåçöîì
             Óâåðåííî
                               È ñëåïî


Êóäà òåïåðü?
Ñîìíåíèå íåëåïî…


Êóäà èäòè â ïðåääâåðèè ñåáÿ!


Ñåáÿ
           Îòêðûâøåéñÿ â ñåáå
Ðàñïàõíóòîé ñëîâàìè íîâûõ ïåñåí
                      Ê èíîé ñóäüáå


Ãîðòàííûé ïòè÷èé êðèê
           Èç ãîðëà ðâåòñÿ
                      Áóäîðàæèò äóøó
ß çäåñü åùå
           Íî ÿ óæå ñîâñåì íå çäåñü
Îäèí ëèøü ìèã
         Îäèí ëèøü øàã è
                      Íîâîå ðîæäåíüå
Ñ÷àñòëèâûé êðèê ðîæäåííîé âíîâü:








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                            Ñòîèò âåêè ñîìêíóòü
       Çàáûâàþ ïðî çäåñü è ñåé÷àñ
Âíîâü âñòðå÷àþ ðàññâåò
        ×òî ñòåêàåò ñ ïðîñíóâøèõñÿ ãîð
Ïîìíþ âêóñ îáëàêîâ
        Âîäîïàäîâ òåêó÷èé óçîð
È ãëàçà ñèíåâû
        Ñ âûñîòû ñíèçîøåäøåé íà íàñ…






Ãäå îïàâøèå çâåçäû
        Òàÿòñÿ â ðàñùåëèíàõ ñêàë
Ïî âåñíå ïðîðàñòàÿ
        Áóòîíàìè áåëûõ öâåòîâ
Ðàçâåðíóë ñâîè ïëå÷è
         Ïîä ïëåäîì ãóñòûõ îáëàêîâ
                     Ñåäîâëàñûé Îòåö-Ïåðåâàë
Ñìîòðèò îí ñâûñîêà
          Íà îòàðû ñâîèõ âàëóíîâ
È ëèøàéíèêîâ øêóðû
          Ìîðùèò äðåâíåå ïëåìÿ êàìíåé
×òî ñáðåäàåò â äîëèíó
           Ìå÷òàÿ çàáûòüñÿ íà íåé
                     Â ÷åðåäå íåñêîí÷àåìûõ ñíîâ…






Ñòîèò âåêè ñîìêíóòü
          Òû óæå íå ñåé÷àñ è íå çäåñü
Òû îïÿòü äàëåêî
           Äàëåêî îò ñåáÿ è îò íàñ
Òû ñ îðëîì â ïîäíåáåñüå
           Òàíöóåøü ñâîé ìåäëåííûé âàëüñ
È ñóðîâûå âåòðû
            Ïîþò ñâîþ âå÷íóþ Ïåñíü


Òàì ãäå ñíåæíûå àíãåëû
          Õëåùóò êðûëîì ïî ëèöó
Îòâîðÿÿ Âðàòà äëÿ
           Ïðèøåäøåãî ñ òîé ñòîðîíû
                        Äëÿ ïîçíàâøåãî òî ÷òî
           Íå âñå òåîðåìû âåðíû
È íå âñå òå ïóòè
            ×òî âåäóò ïîä âåíöîì
                                             È ê âåíöó…




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Ñûí õîëîäíîé âîäû
È îñåííåãî ñòûëîãî ñîëíöà
Áåëîëèöûé òóìàí
Ìÿãêî êðàëñÿ ïî ñêëîíó ãîðû
À æåñòîêèå âåòðû
Ðàñïðàâèâ øèðîêèå êðûëüÿ
Âîçáóæäåííî ñâèñòåëè
 ïðåäâêóøåíèè íîâîé èãðû


Èçîðâàëè òóìàí
Ðàçìåòàëè áåëåñûå êëî÷üÿ
Ïîòåøàëèñü âñþ íî÷ü
Îò âå÷åðíåé çàðè äî çâåçäû
Òîëüêî êëî÷üÿ òóìàíà
Îáåðíóëèñü ê óòðó îáëàêàìè
×òî âåðõîì íà âåòðàõ
Ïîíåñëèñü áåç ñåäëà è óçäû…




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                              Òàì ãäå òðîïû è âîäîïàäû
                      Âûðåçàþò íà ñêàëàõ
               Ñàêðàëüíûé óçîð
                       Òàì ãäå êîðìèò ñ çåëåíûõ ëàäîíåé
                                 Îáëàêà
                     Ïåðåâàë
Óëûáàÿñü ãëàçàìè ïðîçðà÷íûõ êàê Íåáî
                                                 Îçåð
Òàì ãäå ïòèöû òàíöóþò
                  Ñïëåòàÿ ïóòè è ìå÷òû
                        Òû ñòîÿë è ñìîòðåë
                                         Òû ñòîÿë è ñìîòðåë
                   Ñ âûñîòû
                                                Ðàçãîâàðèâàë ñ âåòðîì
                           Âîïðîñû áðîñàë â îáëàêà
                                       Òû ñòîÿë
                                                Âëàãîé ãîðíûõ ðó÷üåâ
                          Èç-ïîä ñòóïíåé ñî÷èëèñü âåêà
                                                Ñîáèðàëèñü âîêðóã âàëóíû
                           Ãíóëè ñïèíû
                                     Ïîêîðíûå âîëå âåòðîâ
                                     Âüþùèõ ãíåçäà ñâîè
                           Íà ïëå÷àõ ó ñåäåþùèõ ãîð
                                      Òû ñòîÿë
                                      Ñëîâíî áóñèíû ÷åòîê ïîä ïàëüöàìè
                           Ïåðåáèðàÿ îòñóòñòâèå ñëîâ


Òû ñòîÿë è ìîë÷àë
                                    È ìåäëèòåëüíî òåê
                        Ñêâîçü òåáÿ
                                                   Ðàçãîâîð…




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                           Òû òàì
Ãäå íåò ñåé÷àñ òåáÿ
                                              Òîãî
                                   ×òî îòäàí ñóåòå
È âçãëÿä
           Ïàðÿùèé â ïóñòîòå
           Íà êðûëüÿõ ïðèçðà÷íîãî âåòðà
                          Ñïîêîåí è íåòîðîïëèâ
Ïðèëèâ
           Ìîðñêîé âîëíîé çåëåíîé
           Òàåæíîé âñïåíåííîé âîëíîé
                                 Ëàñêàåò ïëå÷è
                                                Èñïîëèíîâ
                       Ñ ñåäîé õîëîäíîé ãîëîâîé
                                    ×òî
            Ìîë÷à ñìîòðÿò ñâûñîêà íà
Ñòàè ïåðåëåòíûõ ïòèö
            Ïðåçðåâøèõ òàèíñòâî ãðàíèö
                         Ñàêðàëüíîé ìîùüþ âîæäåëåíüÿ
Ïðåçðåâøèõ ñïîðû è ñîìíåíüÿ è óêîðèçíó ñîííûõ ëèö
                                                                      Âîêðóã…
                                     Òàê
         Ñîáèðàþòñÿ ñëîâà
                 Íå ñïåòûõ ïåñåí
                          Íîâûì ñòðîåì
                          Íåò, íå æóææàùèì æåëòûì ðîåì —
                          Îí òàì, ãäå âîçäóõ íåñïîêîåí!..


                          À çäåñü…
Êàê çíàòü
                     Òåáå ñàìîé Ñóäüáîé
Áûòü ìîæåò òîëüêî çäåñü
         Ðàñïàõíóòû Âðàòà
                 Èíûõ ìèðîâ
                            Èíûõ áûòèéíûõ ëèíèé


Ïðî÷òè ñ âåðøèíû
      Êàê èñ÷åð÷åíà ðóêà
            Ìåæ ãîð âîçëåãøåé
                   Äåâñòâåííîé äîëèíû!..
Òåáå ëü íå âèäåòü âñå
Òåáå ëü äàíî íå çíàòü
       Ãäå ñîáèðàþòñÿ ñûíû
             Ñåìè âåòðîâ
                    Ïîþùèõ ïåñíè íåáó?
       Î ÷åì ïîþò îíè
               Êàêèå âèäÿò ñíû è
Ãäå òà ãðàíü
         ×òî ðàçäåëÿåò áûëü è íåáûëü…


Øàãíóâ êîãäà-òî â êðóã
       Â êðóæåíèå îðëîâ
               Â ñâÿùåííûé òàíåö ïòèö
Òû âòîðèøü èõ ãîðòàííî-ñòðàñòíûì êðèêàì
        Òåáå ëè â êîëåñå íå âèäåòü ñïèö
                Íå ïîìíèòü âñå
                        Çàáûòü
                        Êóäà âåäóò ïóòè
         Âñåõ òåõ êòî ñâåòåë ëèêîì?


   Òû ãäå-òî åñòü
                À ãäå-òî íåò òåáÿ
    Íî òîëüêî çäåñü
           Òû çíàåøü
                          Òîëüêî çäåñü
    Ëåæèò òâîé Ïóòü
             Ïðîõîäèò ñêâîçü òåáÿ…


Çäåñü òêåòñÿ Íèòü òâîÿ
                       Òâîÿ ïîåòñÿ Ïåñíü…