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Ñ ãîäàìè âñå îñòðåå öåíèøü êðóã,
Î÷åð÷åííûé íåìíîãèìè äðóçüÿìè:
È áëèçîñòü äóø, âîçíèêøóþ íå âäðóã,
È æåðòâû òåõ, ÷òî òàê ëþáèìû íàìè.
È â æèçíè ÷òî áåçðàäîñòíà äàâíî,
Îñòàâèâ â ïðîøëîì ëåãêèå ïîáåäû,
Ìû ñëîâíî ñìîòðèì ñòàðîå êèíî:
Ñåìåéíûé ñòîë, äóøåâíàÿ áåñåäà.
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With time we take too close to heart
The circle of some friends which we had once,
Propinquity of souls that came too hard
And sacrifices of our beloved ones.
In our life, which has been long so sour,
We have forgotten our conquests in a «rebel».
We seem to watch a motion-picture now:
A cordial talk, a family at table.
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×åì ìåíüøå íà÷èíàåøü åñòü,
Òåì íàñûùàåøüñÿ áûñòðåå,
È ÷óâñòâî ãîëîäà òóïåå,
È, êàæåòñÿ ñìûñë æèçíè âåñü,
×òîá îò ñòðàíû ñâîåé çàðïëàòó
Æäàòü, òî ïîëãîäà, à òî ãîä...
È ïðîêëÿòî-áëàãîñëàâåí íàðîä,
×òî âîñïèòàëè òàê êîãäà-òî.
×òî òî, ÷òî íàæèòî ãîðáîì,
Îí ïðèíèìàåò, êàê ïîäà÷êó,
Èëü êîñòü, ÷òî áðîñÿò ëè ñîáà÷êå,
Èñïðàâíî îõðàíÿâøåé äîì.
È, çíàÿ õëåáíûì êðîøêàì ñ÷åò,
Ïðèñëóøèâàÿñü ê êàøëþ äî÷êè, —
ß ïîíÿë: äîõîæó äî òî÷êè,
Çà êîåé íåíàâèñòü æèâåò.
Èõ ìíîãî — òåõ, êîãî ëþáîâü ñïàñëà;
Âåäü è Ãîñïîäü ïðîñòèë Èóäó...
Êîãäà æå íåíàâèñòü, êàê ñêâîçíÿêè, ïîâñþäó,
È êðîâîñîñàì íåò ÷èñëà.
Îíà ìíå êðîâíàÿ ðîäíÿ,
Âïàäàþ â ãðåõ, ïóñêàÿñü ïî ìûòàðñòâàì,
È óòâåðæäàþ: íåò îò íåé ëåêàðñòâà —
È... ãëóïî ïåðåóáåæäàòü ìåíÿ...
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It’s known that the less we eat
The faster we’re fed up and sated,
And our hunger is abated,
And it it’s the sense of life, is it?
We think it does make sense to wait
for months until we get our wages...
Blessed is the nation which for ages
Has had to bear such a state.
What has been earned by dent of work
We take as their condescension,
Or leavings thrown to the dog
A sigh of great consideration.
I know the cost of bread of mine
And, thinking of my daughter’s ailing,
I know that I have reached the line
Where hatred find its place of dwelling.
Those saved by love are not so rare;
God Pardoned Judas in old times...
When there is hatred everywhere
There’s abundance of vampires.
Thus hatred is a kin of mine
To sin and anguish I’m fated.
I claim: there is no remedy from hatred
(Don’t try to make me change my mind)...
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Îïÿòü Âû â êðàñíîì. Âàì îíî ê ëèöó,
À ìîå òèõî êðîâîòî÷èò ñåðäöå.
È ïóëåé ïðîäîëæàåò ìûñëü âåðòåòüñÿ:
Çà÷åì ïðèïîëç ÿ ê Âàøåìó êðûëüöó?!
Îïÿòü Âû â êðàñíîì. Êðàñíîå — çàïðåò,
À ÿ êàê ñòàðèêàøêà, âïàâøèé â äåòñòâî,
Èëè êîðàáëü, ïîòåðïåâøèé áåäñòâèå,
Æäó ïîìîùè. À åå íåò è íåò...
Îïÿòü Âû â êðàñíîì. Âñå ó Âàøèõ íîã, —
È äàæå ýòîò, ìíîé ëþáèìûé ãîðîä,
È ìîé íàâåê íåóòîëåííûé ãîëîä,
È òå, êòî çàãëóøèòü åãî íå ñìîã...
Îïÿòü Âû â êðàñíîì. Äàæå íå êðàñíåÿ,
Âû ñìîòðèòå íå ìèð ïîâåðõ ãîëîâ,
Îñòàëîñü âñêèíóòü áðîâè: «Êòî òàêîâ,
×òî äàë òîïîð è ïðèãîòîâèë øåþ?..»
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You’re wearing red. It does become you, dear,
Whereas my heart is broken, bleeding.
And, like a bullet, in my head one thought is spinning:
Why have I come to you? Why am I here?
You’re wearing red. And red denotes a ban.
While I am like an aged man in dotage,
Or, like a ship, that sends a trouble message,
I need a helping hand, and there is none...
You’re wearing red again and look your best.
You own the town which I love so dearly,
The hunger I’m suffering from severely,
And those who couldn’t quench my thirst.
You’re wearing red. And you don’t blush, nor frown,
As you look down on the whole wide world,
And all you have to say now is the word:
«Who’s here, giving me an axe and bending down?..»
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Ñâå÷à òåïëî ãîðåëà â àëòàðå,
Çà çäðàâèå æåíû , ìåíÿ è äî÷êè.
Âåñíû-íåâåñòû — âåðáû ïî÷êè
Ñèÿëè — âñå â ïàñõàëüíîì ñåðåáðå.
È èñïîäâîëü â òèøè àìâîíà,
Êàê æíèöà, â ñíîï ãðåõè ñâÿçàâ,
Ñîæãëà èõ íà ìîèõ ãëàçàõ,
Øåï÷à äóøå: òû ïðîùåíà, òû äîìà...
À äàëüøå — ñâåòëûé ìèã ïîñòà:
Ïðè÷àñòíèêè ïîäõîäÿò ê ÷àøå,
È, ëîæå÷êó äàðîâ ïðèÿøà,
Ïüþò êðîâü è ïîò ñ ãîëãîôñêîãî êðåñòà.
Äóøà çîâåòñÿ ââûñü — ãîðå,
Ïðåçðåòü ãðåõîâíîñòü, íåëþäèìîñòü,
×òîá ïîíÿë ÿ íåîáõîäèìîñòü
Ñâå÷è, ãîðÿùåé â àëòàðå.
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The candle light was warm and bright as day,
For me, my wife and our little daughter.
Spring buds of willow in the alter
Were shining on the Easter silver tray.
I saw confession, in seclusion,
Tie in a bundle all the sins
And burn them like confounded things
Declaring: «Now you have your absolution».
Next came the sweet bright fast, of course,
Communion takers came up to the bowl,
To take a gulp so that the soul
Might share the blood from crucifixion cross.
My soul aspires to the height,
Away from solitude, transgression,
So that I come to comprehension
Of Holy Altar’s candle light...
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Îíà ëþáîâü ðàñòèò íà êóõíå
Ñðåäü ðóãàíè è ñóåòû,
Íàäåæäû õðóïêîé, ÷òî íå ðóõíåò
Ìèð åå ñîçäàííîé ìå÷òû,
È, ÷òî, îáäàâ æèòåéñêîé ïåíîé,
Âîëíà êîðàáëü ïðèãîíèò ê íåé,
È ÷òî ïî òðàïó, íåñîìíåííî,
Ñïåøà ñáåæèò êðàñàâåö Ãðåé...
...Íî÷ü ïàðóñà ñâåðíåò æãóòîì.
È âíîâü ïîäíèìåò ëèøü ê ðàññâåòó...
È áóäóò ïèòü ìàòðîñû ðîì,
Æåëàÿ ïàðå «ìíîãî ëåòà»,
È ñîëíöà ëó÷ îòûùåò ÷óäî,
Ñêîëüçÿ ñðåäü ìÿòûõ ïðîñòûíåé...
... Íó âîò — òû âûìûëà ïîñóäó,
Òåïåðü ïîäàé åäó ñêîðåé,
Çàáóäü, ÷òî áûë âîëøåáíèê ìèëûé, —
È íå ïðîëåé òàðåëêó ùåé,
Íåñÿ ê ñòîëó, ãäå áðûçæåò ñèëîé
Ïóñòü êòî óãîäíî, íî íå Ãðåé.
È, ïîêëîíÿÿñü ìíîãèì áåäàì,
Ïðèìè óäàð åùå îäíîé:
Ìèð ñêàçêè æðóùåìó íå âåäîì —
Âîò ñìûñë èñòèíû ïðîñòîé...
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Her love is grown in the kitchen
Amidst the wrangle, fuss and rush,
The world of dream, for which she’s itching,
And which, she faintly hopes, won’t crash.
She hopes that splashing her all over
With worldly froth, the waves will send
A ship to her, from which her lover,
The handsome Grey, is to descend.
The night will then roll up the sail
And hoist it at daybreak, on leaving,
The sailors, drinking rum, will hail
The couple wishing them «long living».
The sunray will search out the wonder,
Sliding about the crumpled sheet...
...You’ve washed the dishes? Don’t meander,
Now bring him quickly food to eat...
Forget about the magician,
Don’t spill the soup bringing the tray
To muscled man, full of ambition,
Who can be anyone but Grey.
You humbly bear pains and ailment,
Perhaps you will find this blow of use:
The world of fairy-tales is alien
To gluttons, — that’s the simple truth...
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