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Îäíîâðåìåííî è òàê æå áåççâó÷íî,
Íåïðîèçâîëüíî è íåîæèäàííî,
Êàê ïåðåä ïîñëàíöåì çàðè,
Ïîäàòëèâûå âðàòà òåëà ðàñïàõèâàþòñÿ,
Îòêðûâàÿ ìèð ïîòóñòîðîííèé, âðàòà äóøè,
Âðàòà èç êîñòè ñëîíîâîé è âðàòà ðîãîâûå
Õëîïàþò ñòâîðêè; ìãíîâåííî
Óíè÷òîæàþò íî÷íîé õëàì
Ñâîåé ìÿòåæíîé ôðîíäû; óðîäëèâûé;
Áðþçãëèâûé è ïîòåðòûé;
Ëèøåííûé ïðàâ, îâäîâåâøèé è îñèðîòåâøèé
Ïî îøèáêå èñòîðèè
Ïðèçâàííûé èç çàáâåíèÿ ñíîâà ñòàòü âèäèìûì ñóùåñòâîì;
Èç çàòî÷åíèÿ – íà âñåîáùåå îáîçðåíèå;
Áåç èìåíè èëè ïðîøëîãî ÿ ïðîáóæäàþñü
Ìåæäó ìîèì òåëîì è âðåìåíåì.
Ñâÿò ýòîò ìèã, àáñîëþòíûé â ñâîåé èñòèíå
È òàê æå, ïîâèíóÿñü àáñîëþòíî
Êðàòêîìó âûêðèêó ñâåòà, íàêàíóíå
Êàê ïàðóñ, ïî÷òè òàêàÿ æå ïðåãðàäà
Òàì âäàëè , êàê ãîðíåå ïàðåíèå êàìíÿ,
Ìèð ñóùåñòâóåò ïîâñþäó.
È ÿ çíàþ, ÷òî ÿ åñòü, çäåñü , íå îäèí
Íî ñ ìèðîì è òîðæåñòâóþ,
Íå èñïûòûâàÿ òîìëåíèÿ äóõà
Èáî âîëÿ Åãî âñå åùå óòâåðæäàåò
Âñå ïðåäøåñòâóþùåå ìîãóùåñòâî, ïðèíàäëåæàùèì ìíå,
Èçâëåêàÿ èç ïàìÿòè èìÿ ìîå
×òîáû âíîâü îáðåñòè ïðèâû÷êó ïðåâîçíîñèòü è âèíèòü
È, óëûáàÿñü ìíå, íå ýòî ëè ñêîðîòå÷íîå ìãíîâåíèå
Îñòàåòñÿ íåîùóòèìûì âðåìåíåì è ÿ
Òîò áåçãðåøíûé Àäàì ó íàøåãî íà÷àëà,
Àäàì ïðåäøåñòâóþùèé âñåìó ÷òî ïðîèçîéäåò.
ß ïåðåâîæó äûõàíèå, ÷òîáû çàãàäàòü æåëàíèå,
Íå âàæíî ÷òî, áûòü ìóäðûì,
Îòëè÷àòñÿ îò äðóãèõ; óìåðåòü, à öåíà,
Íå âàæíî ïî÷åìó – Ðàé
Ïîòåðÿííûé; êîíå÷íî, è ÿ ñàì çàäîëæàâøèé ñìåðòè.
Íàïðÿãøèéñÿ õðåáåò ãîð, ñïîêîéíîå ìîðå;
Ïëîñêèå êðûøè ðàá÷üåãî ïîñåëêà,
Âñå åùå ñïÿùåãî â ñâîåì ãíåçäå íà ñêëîíå.
Êàê äðóæáû íåò ìåæ ñîëíöåì è ïðîõëàäîé,
Ëèøü ñîñóùåñòâîâàíüå, òàê è ýòà ïîñëóøíàÿ ïëîòü
Íå âåðíàÿ ðîâíÿ ìíå, íî ìîé ñîîáùíèê íûíå
È ìîé óáèöà íàåìíûé. À ìîå èìÿ
Ãàðàíòèðóåò ìîþ èñòîðè÷åñêóþ ðîëü
 çàáîòå î ëæèâîì, ñîçäàâøåì ñåáÿ ãîðîäå,
Áîÿùåìñÿ íàøèõ íàñóùíûõ ïðîáëåì
È ñìåðòè, êîòîðóþ íàñòóïàþùåå âðåìÿ âîñòðåáóåò.
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- Îäíîâðåìåííî è ïî÷òè áåççâó÷íî,
- Âíåçàïíî, ïðîèçâîëüíî, íà ðàññâåòå,
- Âî âðåìÿ õâàñòîâñòâà ??? çàðè, âîðîòà
- Â ñîêðûòûé ìèð ðàñïàõèâàåò òåëî:
- Õàðàêòåðà è ðàçóìà âîðîòà,
- Ñëîíîâîé êîñòè è ïðîñòîãî ðîãà
- Îíè, âðàùàÿñü, õëîïàÿ, ñìåòàþò
-  îäíî ìãíîâåíüå õëàì íî÷íîé ìÿòåæíûõ
- Ïðîâèíöèé ???òåëà, çëîáíûõ, áåçîáðàçíûõ,
- Íåãîäíûõ, âòîðîñîðòíûõ è áåñïðàâíûõ,
- Îñèðîòåâøèõ, îâäîâåâøèõ èç-çà
- Êàêîé-òî èñòîðè÷åñêîé îøèáêè:
- È, âûçâàííûé ñòàòü âèäèìûì èç òåíè,
- Íåáûòèÿ, ÿâèòüñÿ íà âèòðèíó,
- Áåç èìåíè, ñóäüáû, ÿ ïðîñûïàþñü
- Ìåæ ýòèì òåëîì è ãðÿäóùèì äíåì.
- Ñâÿò ýòîò ìèã, âñåöåëî è ïî ïðàâó,
- Â ñâîåì áåñïðåêîñëîâíîì ïîñëóøàíüè
- Êîðîòêîìó, êàê âñïûøêà, êðèêó ñâåòà,
- Âáëèçè, êàê ïðîñòûíÿ, âîêðóã, êàê ñòåíû,
- Êàê êàìåíü ðàâíîâåñèå îáðåòøèé
- Â îäåæäå ãîð, ìèð ðÿäîì ñóùåñòâóåò,
- ß çíàþ, ÷òî ÿ åñòü, íå îäèíîêèé,
- Íî ñ ìèðîì çäåñü è ðàäóþñü òîìó, ÷òî,
- Íåðàçäðàæåííîé ïîâèíóÿñü âîëå,
- Ìîãó íàçâàòü ñâîåþ ðóêó ðÿäîì.
- Ìîãó ïðèçâàòü è ïàìÿòü, ÷òîá íàçâàòüñÿ,
- Ìîãó âîññòàíîâèòü åå ìàðøðóòû
- Õóëû è ïîõâàëû, ìíå óëûáíåòñÿ
- Ìãíîâåíüå ýòî, äåíü åùå íå òðîíóò,
- È ÿ Àäàì áåçãðåøíûé ó èñòîêîâ,
- Àäàì, åùå äî âñåõ åãî äåÿíèé.
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Ìîé âäîõ, êîíå÷íî, -- ýòî åñòü æåëàíüå
×åãî áû òî íè ñòîèëî, áûòü ìóäðûì,
Áûòü íåïîõîæèì, óìåðåòü, öåíà æå, --
Íåâàæíî ïî÷åìó, -- Ðàé, çàïëóòàâøèé
 ïóòè è ñàì ÿ, çàäîëæàâøèé ñìåðòè:
Ñòðåìëåíüå ãîð, íåäâèæèìîå ìîðå
Ó ïëîñêèõ êðûø ðûáàöêîãî ïîñåëêà,
×òî áåçìÿòåæíî ñïèò ïîêóäà â ëîíå,
Êàê äðóæáû íåò ìåæ ñîëíöåì è ïðîõëàäîé,
Ëèøü ñîñóùåñòâîâàíüå, òàê è ïëîòü
Íå ðîâíÿ ìíå, ìîé íûíåøíèé ñîîáùíèê --
Óáèéöà ìîé, è èìÿ ìîå çíà÷èò
Çàáîòû èñòîðè÷åñêóþ äîëþ
Î ãîðîäå-ëæåöå, ñåáÿ âçðàñòèâøåì,
×òî íàøèìè ïðîáëåìàìè íàïóãàí,
×üþ ñìåðòü èñïðîñèò íàñòóïèâøèé äåíü.
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Simultaneously, as soundlesly
Spontaneously, suddenly,
As, at the vaunt of the dawn, the kind
Gates of the body fly open
To its world beyond, the gates of the mind,
Swing to, swing shut, instantaneously
Quell the nocturnal rummage
Of its rebellious fronde, ill-favored,
Ill-natured and second rate,
Disfranchised, widowed and orphaned
By an historical mistake
Recalled from the shades to be a seeing being,
From absence to be on display,
Without a name or history I wake
Between my body and the day.
- Holy this moment, wholly in the right,
- As, in complete obedience
- To the light's laconic outcry, next
- As a sheet, near as a wall,
- Out there as a mountain's poise of stone,
- The world is present, about,
- And I know that I am, here, not alone
- But with a world and rejoice
- Unvexed, for the will has still to claim
- This adjacent arm as my own,
- The memory to name me, resume
- Its routine of praise and blame
- And smiling to me is this instant while
- Still the day is intact, and
- The Adam sinless in our beginning,
- Adam still previous to any act.
- I draw breath; this is of course to wish
- No matter what, to be wise,
- To be different, to die and the cost,
- No matter how, is Paradise
- Lost of course and myself owing a death;
- The eager ridge, the steady sea,
- The flat roofs of the fishing village
- Still asleep in its bunny,
- Though as fresh and sunny still are not friends
- But things to hand, this ready flesh
- No honest equal, but my accomplice now
- My assassin to be, and my name
- Stands for my historical share of care
- For a lying self-made city,
- Afraid of our living task, the dying
- Which the coming day will ask.
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